Its about 11pm on Christmas day, I'm in bed awake while the wife has been asleep for over an hour. Many things are crossing my head. Writing, science, the kids and last but never least, my education and short comings of said topic.
Most of you know that my first goal is a BS in Physics (particularly Astro). I hear alot of people try to cut that down because my current math levels arent great. The worst part of this is that I listen or let alot of what is said get to me. Any and all problems in the academic world are my fault entirely, but Ive been looking at my problems within academia as they exist currently. In doing so I discredit my self and give no room for growth otherwise.
As this blog is a home for my tidbits on my writings and feelings of, I feel that Im not being an honest writer if I give my stories and characters growth, but deny it for my self. I cant afford, my wife cant either, for me to cut my self short when a problem arises. I see when my main character, Jess, is faced with something larger than her self, I have to help her atleast become a part of it, if not rise above it.
Too many times have problems caused me to pause, step back, even give in and up. I think I'm truly the only person who knows that I have a truly cowardice side and it can often get the best of me. Its time to break it, or else admit defeat in all things and let my loved ones see me do something I cannot afford to: buckle under pressure because things are a little much.
Thats me for now, hoping to get some sleep.
I think we all have a cowardice side inside us, but know that, no matter what happens, I'm right behind and beside you. I'm proud of you for continuing the push for your desired degree, no matter what anyone says about the math. I love you.
ReplyDeleteOne thing that seems to help some people understand the more abstract math--at least at the levels I got to deal with--is being able to both put it into perspective in terms of usage and--for some--put some visuals behind it.
ReplyDeleteFor the visualization, you can try one of these:
http://euler.rene-grothmann.de/
http://freemat.sourceforge.net/
(There are others, it's just those two I've seen people use and recommend)
While they might also do most of the work for you, you can use them as checks for your own work as well as being able to use them to show you what certain functions, etc. look like visually without burning through a ton of graph paper.
They are also free and share some similarity to the math programs some of your classes will probably use later as well...