Give it a purpose!

This post will be a bit off center from normal, more personal and fun with a side of my opinion.

Recently we have decided to take a family trip (coming Feb 21) to Disneyland for a couple of days. I could not be more excited for the kids and me and the wife. Im really giddy thinking about it all and how much fun we will have. If you would have asked me six years ago if I would end up taking the family to Disneyland I may have looked at you crazy and told you "I dont have a family and dont want to start one". For me, my life's purpose was to delay responsibility (hardcore responsibility) for as long as possible.

Today I look back at that word, purpose, and how it relates to life. People search holy books, listen to those wiser than they (or so they think) and go to endless stretches to find a purpose to their life. Be it a higher power, a path of understanding, love or even evil (sadly) sometimes. People need to realise that there are purposes to life, but they arent given to us, we create them with our desires and actions.

Through my actions and developments through life, evolving thoughts and comparative reactions. I have come to see my purpose is to live life with joy, try to give some (atleast) small measure of joy to others and love my family. I have given my self this purpose, so that one day I hope the kids can see some purpose for them selves and give them selves a good life with my help. My purpose is to love my wife as she is my partner through the crazy journey. Over all, and I fully understand what a mentor tried to teach me so long ago, is to just "be". For me, that is acceptable, and its enough.

I'll end with a profound thought that I am borrwing from a song called "Design Your Universe" by Epica.

"So many people are full of hate
While love and light are in their reach
So many people will harm themselves
But life can be so beautiful

So many people will idolize
While their own success is in their reach
Don't forget you're able to
Design your own universe"

The Pagemaster

Not too long ago, the wife and I were talking about a movie that I loved as a kid, "The Pagemaster". It invovled a boys adventure through this "book world" where stories and books them selves came to life. He was accompanied by 3 books, Adventure, Fantasy and horror. For me it was and still is a bit of a treasure. Lucky enough for me (and the kids) Zia just happened to have a copy.

I like to think of what the pagemaster could be for an adult. Yes, there is the movie "Inkheart" (based off of the book, I've yet to read). Where a man has the ability to bring things to life from the books he read (I really reccomend you watch it). However more specifically, what if an adult (who reads regularly) was brought into that world. Who and what would accompany him/her. For me, adventure wouldnt be some pirate, it would probably be a lone mystic traveller. Fantasy would appear to be a normal old fashioned warrior, the way he spoke would give it away that he was from a world a far cry different than ours. And horror? I dont think it would be stereotypical gash and bash for me. I take horror as some one who can get inside of you, work you like theres not a chance you can fight back. A normal enough looking person with a mind of destruction and a smile of serenity.

Think about your world of books, and what may accompany you without using specific characters. Feel free to post it here, or post it on my facebook page where I will have this posted. Its time to imagine a bit.

Thats me for now!

To continue

We all deal with loss and gain in certain ways. I think we take for granted the people who can learn to balance their emotional response to help others who cannot. In my book, there is a lot of emotional strain involved, pushing people to limits that average folks may not experience. I TRY (within obvious points fail) to keep experiences into something I can relate to in my books so I may better write certain points.

A chapter I'm working on now involves a person who can balance loss and gain, a person who can stand as a rock when the winds and tides push against everyone. I wont reveal names, mostly in the hopes that if I get published I can look back here and given deeper analysis of certain characters. Its challenging because there are times that I don't balance things like loss and gain well. I can find my self overly emotional or bluntly not. It isn't that I don't have emotion or nothing but for these circumstances, it's that I'm human and feel more or less for certain things.

With this man, I also have to give other sides, people who are grieving and those who feel empty and indifferent. I find human nature to be tricky when giving a range of emotions because its plain to see that a play on words such as "human nature" is very deceiving. We treat nature as a constant from one thing to the next, when the only thing i can find within nature is that there are seldom constants.

Those are my thoughts for now.

Annnnnd....

Finally I have finished chapter 14. It wasnt some massive and explosive ending to my troubles, nothing like fireworks and mass chearing. No, there wasnt even a cliche "applaud" sign lighting up anywhere. Better than all of that, I was given a sort of peaceful fealing. Content that it isnt over but was made to bridge it self to the next chapter. I dont like saying a chapter or book has ended, I like saying its conclusion is some where within the part of its characters. With a little imagination there are few works of fiction that really do end. However this post is about to end with a point. Given a breath of pause and a word from a friend, sometimes things can be changed entirely! I will just call the friend C, he knows who he is, and his advice was one that i decided to take (albiet modified). Take it easy!