Chapter 14: why im now psychotic!

No, thats not the real name of the troublesome chapter ive been fixatfed on making perfect (even in an early first edit). But it would be accurate to the effects its having on me.

Unlike with previous posts, I have the mood, but in finding it completely threw the tone off. Its laid out cleaner than before, but that needs changing. I know, its a first edit, perfection is nothing more than asking for pages and hair to start falling out. To that I say this is one of the most important chapters, easily tied for most important. If the very flow is off in "just" the first edit, it tends to mess with me, and has been the cause 2 of my other projects to remain untouched for years.

In all, these 3 books im working on now belong a larger, world, and so much more. Ive worked on this created world of mine since I was 15. It cannot be abandoned, sometimes I tell myself that I cannot stop or the main antagonist will win. I often wonder if I truly talk about my writing or my life and well being when I get to thinking about it. As Ive said before, each character is more than ink or pixels; their life may not be one we hold sway and influence over, but their story caught my eye as it happened in my vast imagination. If I get published and paid one day, cool! But my ultimate goalbis to tell this story for them. They are the ripples from the rock that was hurled into my pond!

Thanks reading my brains exhaust!

Holiday ramblings

Its about 11pm on Christmas day, I'm in bed awake while the wife has been asleep for over an hour. Many things are crossing my head. Writing, science, the kids and last but never least, my education and short comings of said topic.

Most of you know that my first goal is a BS in Physics (particularly Astro). I hear alot of people try to cut that down because my current math levels arent great. The worst part of this is that I listen or let alot of what is said get to me. Any and all problems in the academic world are my fault entirely, but Ive been looking at my problems within academia as they exist currently. In doing so I discredit my self and give no room for growth otherwise.

As this blog is a home for my tidbits on my writings and feelings of, I feel that Im not being an honest writer if I give my stories and characters growth, but deny it for my self. I cant afford, my wife cant either, for me to cut my self short when a problem arises. I see when my main character, Jess, is faced with something larger than her self, I have to help her atleast become a part of it, if not rise above it.

Too many times have problems caused me to pause, step back, even give in and up. I think I'm truly the only person who knows that I have a truly cowardice side and it can often get the best of me. Its time to break it, or else admit defeat in all things and let my loved ones see me do something I cannot afford to: buckle under pressure because things are a little much.

Thats me for now, hoping to get some sleep.

Time of a precious sort

Been a bit since I've posted. Hope everyone had a great thanksgiving (or if youre in another country, had a great day/November.). I said that blurb because ive seen one person from Germany reading this, cool.

About a week ago, my wife started an overnight job working in a warehouse. Its been my job making sure the kids get to bed, bathed and are fed in the mornings, as she doesnt get home till around past 630am. Its effected both of our sleep, obviously for her she sleeps less through out the week, but Ive been trying to get her alot of quiet time where I can on her days off. For me, I've gotten used to having some one next to me and its been harder getting to sleep and staying that way, but I'm sure itll get easier.

On other notes, can anyone beleive its December already? Seems like the older I am the fast time goes by. Wasnt it just new years a month ago? Which is another good point in my writing. Chapter 14 is still killing me, im going to be scraping the ENTIRE idea/model I had for it and will be going with something a bit different, less comfortable, to help me get past it for now. In the end most of this is the framework that I will be adding to later.

The problem with the chapter is that it takes place directly, literally minutes, after a major turning point and its delicate. If I do this part wrong, it could make or break the book and I just cant have it broken. When the wifey goes to work tonight and the boy is in bed, I'm going to try to sit down and hammer it out. Put on some music, zone out a bit and let it flow, Drew Style.

Take it easy

Time of a precious sort

Been a bit since I've posted. Hope everyone had a great thanksgiving (or if youre in another country, had a great day/November.). I said that blurb because ive seen one person from Germany reading this, cool.

About a week ago, my wife started an overnight job working in a warehouse. Its been my job making sure the kids get to bed, bathed and are fed in the mornings, as she doesnt get home till around past 630am. Its effected both of our sleep, obviously for her she sleeps less through out the week, but Ive been trying to get her alot of quiet time where I can on her days off. For me, I've gotten used to having some one next to me and its been harder getting to sleep and staying that way, but I'm sure itll get easier.

On other notes, can anyone beleive its December already? Seems like the older I am the fast time goes by. Wasnt it just new years a month ago? Which is another good point in my writing. Chapter 14 is still killing me, im going to be scraping the ENTIRE idea/model I had for it and will be going with something a bit different, less comfortable, to help me get past it for now. In the end most of this is the framework that I will be adding to later.

The problem with the chapter is that it takes place directly, literally minutes, after a major turning point and its delicate. If I do this part wrong, it could make or break the book and I just cant have it broken. When the wifey goes to work tonight and the boy is in bed, I'm going to try to sit down and hammer it out. Put on some music, zone out a bit and let it flow, Drew Style.

Take it easy